Gratuitous Gore – Chiron Transits

One of the amazing things about being an astrologer is that I’ll routinely have clients from all walks of life dealing with the same transit at the same time. The Universe decides, “This is the problem you’re meant to solve right now. Help these people.”

Right now, almost all of my clients are going through a Chiron transit.

I deeply care about my clients to the point that I almost have a grudge against this transit.

It’s painful. Almost gratuitously so. All of my clients are tough as nails, but this is creating suffering that brings them to their knees.

We all know that Chiron, the wounded healer, is painful. It’s representative of our permanent wound and the ways it teaches us to help others. Having it in your natal chart is hard enough. But when Chiron transits your chart, it’s a whole new level.

Chiron takes about 4 years to transit a sign, making the intensity draaaag on. And it has extended retrogrades, meaning that it will pass over a point 4, 5, 6 times. Wave and after wave after wave – they just keep coming.

And what I keep hearing from my clients is “WHY does it have to hurt so bad?” These are people who have been through hell, walked on hot coals, and built their lives anyway. But this is just too much. It’s all the heartache you’ve ever felt concentrated on you like the Eye of Sauron.

But as we’ve learned with other transits, the lower it takes you, the more you stand to gain.

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I have a good friend in who was in a bad situation. She was just beginning her career as a healer, and it wasn’t exactly going the way she planned. She fell under the spell of a predatory Reiki teacher who had decided that my friend belonged to her and her alone, and she was constantly tightening her grip, creating one of the most breathtakingly emotionally abusive relationships I’ve ever heard of.

My friend was lost. But one day, in something of a blind panic, she went to a tattoo shop and had all the reiki symbols she knew tattooed on her arm. If you’re familiar, you know that this is a WILD thing to do. It’s like blasting yourself with a spiritual machine gun.

And oh God, did she feel it. As Chiron transited her Sun, her Reiki teacher dropped her. But not just that – the teacher, who was widely respected and really the only game in town at that time, trashed her to anyone who would listen. Her spiritual career was gone, and everyone in the community she was hoping to foster now thought that she was the abuser.

Then her parents died, one right after the other. Then her daughter had a mental breakdown and tried to harm herself. Then she lost her housing.

For YEARS, the pain kept coming and coming.

So she did the only thing she could – soldier on. She rented a tiny little room in the back of a chiropractor’s office for her massage/Reiki practice, in which she also surreptitiously slept while her daughter received inpatient care. She was afraid, but she created a few handwritten business cards and posted them on a board at Tropical Smoothie Café. And miraculously, just a day later, she got her first client ever – me.

We hit it off right away, and I became a weekly fixture. I told everyone I knew about her and suddenly she had more work than she could handle. We became great friends, and that’s how I learned about her horrible backstory.

But here’s the kicker – when I met her, I was in an abusive relationship too. I didn’t know how to handle it, and I was falling apart. She helped me regulate my nervous system so I could think clearly. She also got me in touch with a therapist who helped me escape. And when that therapist retired, she found me another one, who has helped me process trauma in ways I never though possible.

And most of all, she gave me the courage to go and be a healer myself. I was already an astrologer, but I had let my practice wither as I dealt with my pain. But she reminded me of my purpose. I’m here to help. I’m here to heal. And so is she.

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Chiron transits touch us so deeply because they hit us in out most sensitive spot – our purpose. When we lose our sense of purpose, life itself stops mattering. There’s no deeper pain than that. There’s no deeper pain that having every inch of your heart screaming in agony and despair, and being convinced that the pain simply does not matter.

But if we follow Chiron into the gauntlet and endure the torment, he does bring us to the other side. And that other side is filled with a new sense of purpose, hard won and, more importantly, permanent. Chiron is the unhealable wound, but he’s also the everlasting state of grace. What you gain from a Chiron transit can’t ever be taken away.

If you’re in the thick of it, I know you want to give up. I empathize to my very bones. But you’ve got hold on. You’re needed here, and what you have to give is too important to be lost. You can do this.

Going through a Chiron transit? Let’s talk.